I'LL MAKE ME A WORLD

Good energy, good energy. Met with the graphic designer yesterday who will be designing my bookcover. An artist to the core. I gave him the concept and my vision of the cover. He promises to get back to me in a couple of weeks with some designs, illustrations, etc. I need to work on my bio and I need to tighten up one of the stories that's going in there. Not the story posted in the My Work section, but another. I'm pleased. Really, really pleased that I'll have a collection ... a book ... to put in my daughter's hand. And if don't nobody else love it, I know I will and she will. She's always excited when I tell her I'm working on my book. Spouse says we're the two goofy artists in the family.

Also, I've been feeling a real need to knit. To sit in silence and use my hands to create. When I read Red Head's Wednesday post about the homogenization of our culture, how every city has the same strip malls filled with the same stores and same styles, it sparked something in me ... I began to think back to my junior high school and high school days, when I dreamed of being a fashion designer. I went to a vo-tech program in the mornings (yup, my grades were that good) and studied fashion illustration, pattern making and sewing. I thought I was going to write and design clothes. No need to tell you all the details of my derailment, but suffice it to say that I remember that time as being a very happy time, when I felt truly alive, when I was defining myself for myself. For a while now I've been thinking about just how I can create more time to go back to that. To have time to write AND design. I've been looking at Nakachi's work (I'm sooo impressed) and some of the links on her site which I'm too tired to link here right now---just go to nakachi's knitting site and check some of the links. I'm amazed at the garments these sister's are crafting and I want to know how to do that. How to make something that's truly unique. I'd love to knit some pants, a duster and a hat to match. Wouldn't I be too fierce?? And since I'm a hat fanatic I'd love to know how to make all kinds of hats. But right now, all I know is the knit stitch, reading patterns is confusing as all get out, and the stockinette stitch has got my head spinning. But I'm going to give it a whirl this afternoon and see what I come up with. Right now, the best thing is that the desire is there and that is indeed a good start.

Much more to tell about all the positive energy coming my way about my beloved San Francisco. It seems as if God is saying, come here, let me help you make up your mind. All kinds of information coming my way about both San Francisco and San Diego and it's a tough call that I'll seriously have to weigh. For a long time I've asked myself about this jones, what is it that's pulling my heart that way? What is it? And the answer came to me the other day: I realize that I will never be who I'm meant to be if I stay here in this town. And that's a tough pill, a horse-sized pill, to swallow. A pill I can't live with. And so, it's time to break out the calendar .... design me a time line for all these things my heart desires. Establish a one year, five year, and ten year plan. Put my goals down on the table and figure out which box each needs to go into. It's time for some serious introspection, some meditation about what my heart really wants. It's time for me to make me a world.

Be Good.
ANGEL