CONTEMPLATIONS


Have you ever thought about what you really wanted in your life? Now, I'm not just talking about a casual musing ... the wake up wishes. "Man, I wish I didn't have to go to work today" or the "Man, why couldn't it be ME that hit that Lotto????" I'm talking about goal and dream identification. I'm talking really, really thinking about what you want and, to take it a step further .... recording those wants? I don't know if it's because I'm getting older or because I'm studying more... understanding spiritual law better ... taking the roof off my mind ... but I've decided that it's time to really think about what I want and to put a plan of action into place. It's time to be on purpose. It's time to just put the energy out there knowing that life is a continous flow and when we have put out positive energy and placed our desires into that flow of life, what we want and what we desire somehow finds its way into our lives. When I look back on my life I realize that everything I've ever really wanted, developed a plan to achieve, and committed to work for, I have eventually been blessed with. I have the backyard I always wanted, the kids I always wanted. Spouse is cool - we have issues but who doesn't? But I think somewhere in our minds we put aside - or lets just say - keep our true desires hidden for fear that if we say what we want and don't get it we'll be disappointed. In other words, it's kinda like a Fox and The Grapes kind of thing. The minimalist theory, I guess. Anyway, I decided to my thoughts out there, in no particular order of importance, as I approach my thirty-ah-em'th birthday, trusting in Spirit to give me the desires of my heart:


* I want to learn how to live without worrying as much as I do.

* I want to learn how to be at peace no matter what condition I find myself in or what company I am amongst or how many digits I find in the balance column of my checking account.

* I want to achieve Agape love.

* I want to write full time and teach young people how to access their own creativity through writing.

* I want to be a published novelist.

* I want to leave my current career, fully financially able to step into the above and when I leave I want it to be for good.

* I want my children to be proud of me.

* I want my children to say that they KNOW, unequivocally, that their mother loved them and gave them the very best that she had to give.

* I want my children to want the best for themselves without any worry or concern about what others will think (including me and Dad).

* I want to live abroad.

* I want to have two homes: one place for the first half of the year and another place for the second half of the year.

* I want to polish my French and learn Spanish (fluently).

* I want to own a bed and breakfast in a coastal area.

* I want to wake up each day knowing that my time is my own.

* I want to live in a place where democracy really exists - where votes do count and leaders are really leaders.

* I want to live in a place where women are in charge (running things).

* I want to wake up and not be afraid that a sniper is on the loose, a terrorist planning another attack ....

* I want to know in my heart that there WILL be a decent world for my children.

* I want to grow old gracefully.

* I want to live to see 125.

* I want grandchildren.

* I want either: a Corvette, a Spider, a Cooper, or a Range Rover, but will settle for all four, just as well.

* I want a boat.

* I want to travel to Cuba and see it with my own two eyes and not throught the distorted lens of the American media.

* I want to go to Africa and stay for at least a month.

* I want to meet Alice Walker.

* I want to love and be loved, always.